Been kinda down...
Do wonder why i worked so hard for some times
to get recognition?
people i helped might not be thankful
to them i'm just a dumb fuck doing their work for them
not that i want to but in the end their sloppiness will affect me
i deal with the final product
therefore the 1st head on the line is mine
And does being honest help
i dont know but it sure dont feel like it now
perhaps its the wrongs i've done in the past
now slowly coming back to hunt me
how can i feel so lonely in a crowded place
how can i laugh when inside i feel like i'm dead
is this the medication
or have i always been this way
is this guilt
or its just that i simply dont belong
out of place
out of sight
out of mind
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
I'm BACKK!!!
vaca @ Nikoi is wat i totally need...
4 whole days filled with sun, water, sand and alcohol
hahahahahahaha
as always i'll let the pictures do the talking...
i miss nikoi island already
just like i miss yogi's bar...
hahahahahahahhaha
back in SG when things aint so rosy
i'm not gonna say more abt it
but people at work are pulling me down
heck... i'm unbeatable
i can live thru it
and i will
was talking to sis the other day and she mention that she wanna quit
and how her bff's boss and colleagues threw this surprise party on her b-day
she said that she knows that not all bosses are that good and no job is that perfect
but she cant stay at where she is right now KNOWING that there are places better than this...
i thot abt it for a few days, i felt the same too
but then i realise that this goes both ways
how many times have i heard from the people around me abt how their jobs suck, their managers or bosses are total ass holes or what not...
i have a good manager now
she's not perfect
and she runs at 120km/hr so i have to move on her pace
its tiring, exhausting and at the end of the day i feel like death yet have none of the benefits
the company's staff benefits and health care belongs to the dinosaur era...
but that does not meant that i just quit, what if i cant find a better job or a better manager. why change something that is not broken in the 1st place.
so to my dear colleague who is leaving next month.
you wave the white flag too fast
my dear
u didnt go to boss when u have too little jobs
but when the going gets tough
u go running to complain abt overload
i have the same words for you as you to me
you're great as a friend
but at work
its a lil questionable...
now
i shall wait for the so called "bonus" hr is coming up for us.
i dont need to increase my pay (hmmm on 2nd thots it will be gd if i do)
just promote my freaking job title
maybe i'm just unlucky u know
the big boss hates my predisuccessor
therefore give him this job title
and i took over this job title
gosh
and then we have no experience trainees getting the exec title once they sign on
so unfair
good thing is i manage to outshine all of them
at least my manager or seniors dont go behind my back telling others "oh its better is you help me on this, she's too inexperience to do it" HA
so many b-bays and weddings this month
so i'm broke
and ppl still owe me money
worse THEY FORGOT
i donno how to chase them
so i shall cont being broke and living on my credit cards
>.<
bye bye mayday dna concert
bye bye gss
bye bye new bag which i need soon cause my esprit died on me and mango will not likely survive another 2 months
bye bye agnes b baggggggggggg
bye bye going to seoul - sm town concert which is 1 day before my freaking BDAY
bye bye dbsk and suju and shinee and hearing zyl and susu sing timeless LIVE!!! along with the 2nd point
my fav song! live!
cries!
the cruelty
cries!
at Jamsil Olympic Stadium
CRIES!
at least i could still afford mirotic at bkk
now
i cant even dream!
ohtheirony
i didnt go bkk cause of h1n1
that point of time sg still have below 20 imported case but bkk have hundreds
so i decided not to go
but then!!! that week itself sg h1n1 hits butter factory
and my sis went butter factory on the said day
GAWD
go bkk to watch mylovelysusu i might get h1n1
stay in sg i slp next to a person who might have h1n1
EITHER WAY I GET H1N1
so why not see susu and get it!
ohtheirony!!!!
4 whole days filled with sun, water, sand and alcohol
hahahahahahaha
as always i'll let the pictures do the talking...
i miss nikoi island already
just like i miss yogi's bar...
hahahahahahahhaha
back in SG when things aint so rosy
i'm not gonna say more abt it
but people at work are pulling me down
heck... i'm unbeatable
i can live thru it
and i will
was talking to sis the other day and she mention that she wanna quit
and how her bff's boss and colleagues threw this surprise party on her b-day
she said that she knows that not all bosses are that good and no job is that perfect
but she cant stay at where she is right now KNOWING that there are places better than this...
i thot abt it for a few days, i felt the same too
but then i realise that this goes both ways
how many times have i heard from the people around me abt how their jobs suck, their managers or bosses are total ass holes or what not...
i have a good manager now
she's not perfect
and she runs at 120km/hr so i have to move on her pace
its tiring, exhausting and at the end of the day i feel like death yet have none of the benefits
the company's staff benefits and health care belongs to the dinosaur era...
but that does not meant that i just quit, what if i cant find a better job or a better manager. why change something that is not broken in the 1st place.
so to my dear colleague who is leaving next month.
you wave the white flag too fast
my dear
u didnt go to boss when u have too little jobs
but when the going gets tough
u go running to complain abt overload
i have the same words for you as you to me
you're great as a friend
but at work
its a lil questionable...
now
i shall wait for the so called "bonus" hr is coming up for us.
i dont need to increase my pay (hmmm on 2nd thots it will be gd if i do)
just promote my freaking job title
maybe i'm just unlucky u know
the big boss hates my predisuccessor
therefore give him this job title
and i took over this job title
gosh
and then we have no experience trainees getting the exec title once they sign on
so unfair
good thing is i manage to outshine all of them
at least my manager or seniors dont go behind my back telling others "oh its better is you help me on this, she's too inexperience to do it" HA
so many b-bays and weddings this month
so i'm broke
and ppl still owe me money
worse THEY FORGOT
i donno how to chase them
so i shall cont being broke and living on my credit cards
>.<
bye bye mayday dna concert
bye bye gss
bye bye new bag which i need soon cause my esprit died on me and mango will not likely survive another 2 months
bye bye agnes b baggggggggggg
bye bye going to seoul - sm town concert which is 1 day before my freaking BDAY
bye bye dbsk and suju and shinee and hearing zyl and susu sing timeless LIVE!!! along with the 2nd point
my fav song! live!
cries!
the cruelty
cries!
at Jamsil Olympic Stadium
CRIES!
at least i could still afford mirotic at bkk
now
i cant even dream!
ohtheirony
i didnt go bkk cause of h1n1
that point of time sg still have below 20 imported case but bkk have hundreds
so i decided not to go
but then!!! that week itself sg h1n1 hits butter factory
and my sis went butter factory on the said day
GAWD
go bkk to watch mylovelysusu i might get h1n1
stay in sg i slp next to a person who might have h1n1
EITHER WAY I GET H1N1
so why not see susu and get it!
ohtheirony!!!!
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