Xmas Wish List

What I want this Xmas

1. Bea to learn how to be independent. Being in Love is good. But its not everything
2. Jer can wake up from his daydreams, grow up and see ppl for who they really are
3. Mel to brighten up. Stop being so gloomy.
4. Cow to find what she really wants in her life. Instead of hiding and running. Stuck but doing nothing about it.
5. Ja to truly live for herself. Not for her parents Not for her gfs. For herself

I dont really have a wish list of presents this year. I just my friends to stop dropping like flies.

In terms of work I complain a lot mostly about the OTs with no pay and the workload. But what i just learn from mel. The good comes with the bad. I have a great manager, the fact that so much work comes to us means that our boss trust us enough to give us so much responsibility, unlike other people who gets scoldings every meeting we get pats in the back.

I've been trying to hide a lot this year, felt like I cant trust, with work success comes friendship failure. Therefore I'm giving my xmas wishes to the people I owe the most to.

Have a happy X'mas everyone. Lets treat next year as a brand new start...

wat i wrote 4 years ago...
kinda coming back to haunt me

We buy more
But enjoy less
We talk too much
Love too seldom
And hate too often
We've learnt to make a living
But not a life
We have taller buildings
But shorter tempers
Wider free ways
But narrower view points
Bigger houses
But smaller families
More conveniences
But less time
We have more degrees
But less senses
More knowledge
But less judgement
We plan more
But accomplice less
We work hard
But play harder
We've learnt to rush
But not to wait
We drink too much
Smoke too much
Spend too recklessly
But laugh too little
We stay up too late
And get up too tired
We read not enough
Watch TV too much
We pray too seldom
We've cleaned up the air
But polluted our souls
Refuse to pay for expensive food
But spends too much on getting rid of the weight
Having sex with different mates
But cant find a life partner

WE ARE THE MONSTERS OF THIS MODERN WORLD

do i miss blogging?
cant really say so
but sometimes its just not on my top priority list...
i have sooo many thing on my mind now
work takes up most of it
spend nearly a mth working till 10 plus everyday (including sat)
when i'm home i just shower and its bed time.
and this will continue till end of the year WOOHOOOO
sun is for family and catching up on line
watching vids
my life is boring
and love GAWD
the last one failed so badly i feel like giving up
(mardy says both of us should join premz in becoming nuns)
wow...

Mel's birthday yest!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY OTHER GAY BOY
blur me forgot to bring cam and forgot to bring the flyers for the x'mas food over...
GUYS we need to discuss wat are we gonna feed our guest...
and no, we cant feed them grass...

lastly...
to ja...
I've tried ignoring you...
Now i'm just pissed...
you wanna know y your comment is still in my tag board
cause i forgot my password when i change my com to my lappie
cant log in cant delete
its bad enough as it is
then ur sms and u pretending that everything is fine and dandy
gawd
what u did was worse then zann
the thing abt zann is
she admits she's the bitch
she plays the role of the bitch
you
you still pretend like a freaking angel
that pissed me off
that you're the 1 who did wrong but yet when i stand next to u
I become the bitch
I'm behaving this way now because i don want to give you false hope
there is no way i will ever forget what you did
you put your love way above friends
you lied and manipulate people to get your way.
and those people
are the 1s you know for years
longer than us
yet u can do that to them
people might say you've changed
but to me
i know
that when jac come back
or another girlfriend comes along
its goes back to square 1
i was stupid enough to not learn it with chris
fate gave me a hard kick in the butt with jac
i'm not gonna be dumb enough to give you another chance.
and i'm not gonna give you false hope by sugar coating my words.