"Smile"

When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door, what cha do that for (what cha do that for)
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

I AM SO PISSED NOW
I'M GONNA HAVE A BITCH FIT!!!!

I HATE MY BOSS!!!!!!!!!

our bonus got postpone to next mth because of her!
our appraiser
our reports
the home visits
the OTS
ALL WASTED
the rest of the freaking company already got their bonus pay increase AND govt civil servants bonus
and US
WE GET NUTS UNTIL NEXT MTH
I WAS SO PLANNING TO SPEND IT ON KL
MY COLLEAGUES WERE GONNA PAY FOR THEIR FLATS AND ALL
NOW
NOW!!!!
WE HAVE TO WAIT
AND WHATS WORSE
SHE GOT HER FREAKING BONUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cause her appraiser is done by the director
and she handed her report to him DIRECTLY
and she totally forgot about us
UNTIL LAST WEEK
when she's suppose to give it to the main office 1st week of june!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!
PLUS PLUS PLUS
today is her freaking bday so we have to pretend its ok and we're happy
LIKE WHAT THE HELL LA

the few reasons i can come up with on why she's so ARRRGGHHH
are these

1. SHE'S CRUELLA DE VILLE'S LONG LOST SISTER

2. SHE'S 46 NOT MARRIED-UNATTACHED-LIVES ALONE SHE'S UNBALANCE AND UNHAPPY AT THE FACT THAT THE REST OF US HAVE A LIFE-ARE ATTACHED- ARE MARRIED- HAVE A FAMILY...

3. SHE'S 46 AND SHE LOOKS OLDER THAN MY MIMI

4. SHE'S JUST AN URBER BITCH

5. SHE'S BORN WITH LOW EQ... VERYYYY LOW EQ

i think is all of the above!

I REALLY HATE HER

some hacker manage get the ending to Harry Potter
donno if its true
I KNOW WHO DIED!!!!
but really it doesnt stop me from pre ordering the book
THIS MAKES ME WANT TO ORDER THE BOOK
to me spoilers are a really good thing
cause i'm bad at waiting
i read grey's anatomy spoilers before i watch them
it doesnt make things less interesting
it keeps me from going crazy
i know dumbledor dead in half blood prince before i read the book
really have no idead if this is true
I REALLY CANT WAIT TILL JULY 21

went to the doc today AGAIN
company doc
SUPER EX LA
54.80
CRAZY SHIT
I AM SOOOOO GONNA CLAIM FOR THIS
the consultation took 5 mins
the waiting for the meds took 30 mins
INSANE
BLAH!!!
i'm still sick
after taking my GOLD meds

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

right now i'm feeling suffering from these
flu
sore throat
no voice
cough
fever
bronchitis
sore back
sore neck

and i cant take mc

BOSSY SUCK

so i took a half day off
drag myself to work this morning to show her how sick i really am
i have NO VOICE
i'm coughing my lungs out
i cant breathe
my nose is runnng so much i'm the grossiest person on earth
and my temp is 38.3

THAT WILL SHOW HER

my colleagues helped
i'm too sick
SO I GOT HALF DAY
which i spend sleeping
so i'm a lil better now

ohhhhh
and
my bday cake
i really really REALLY want this


its quite ex
hmmm actually REALLY EX
mimi's jaw is still on the floor
i think she's gonna bring the pic to another baker
to see if they can recreate a smaller and cheaper one

I LOVE THIS SONG
by 蘇打綠 (Sodagreen)
cute band name
hahaha
they won best band in this years golden melody awards
best song writer for this song
小情歌
which means little love song
any way its a lovely song

小情歌

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著人們心腸的曲折
我想我很快樂　當有你的溫熱
腳邊空氣轉了

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著我們心頭的白鴿
我想我很適合　當一個歌頌者
青春在風中飄著

你知道　就算大雨讓這個城市顛倒
我會給你懷抱
受不了　看見你背影來到
寫下我　度秒如年難捱的離騷

就算整個世界被寂寞綁票
我也不會奔跑
逃不了　最後誰也都蒼老
寫下我　時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

This is a simple little love song
Singing the complications of people’s hearts
I think I’m happy, when I had your warmth
The air by my feet changes
This is a simple little love song
Singing of the freedom in our hearts
I think I’m suited to singing odes
Youth flutters in the wind
You know, even if floods overtake this city
I’ll give you my embrace
Can’t stand, seeing the form of your back
I’ll write down the unending misery of leaving
Even if the entire world is held ransom by loneliness
I won’t run away
Can’t escape, in the end everyone grows old
I’ll write down, time and music intersected at the wrong castle

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need

I FINALLY FOUND THE RIGHT VERSION OF MAYDAY'S WEN ROU
this is the 2nd version and its the 1 i really really love
a joy to heard them perform this song live...
heard them in PS years back
hahahaha
the version i found its not live
but still
i LOVE THIS SONG
really sometimes they are the ONLY thing that pushes me forward
NO i'm not upset or missing some1 or WHATEVER
sometimes a song is just a song
a motivation?
maybe
but it depends on how u see it
they relax me
help me think
make me feel like i'm not alone or helpless
YES
you can say in a sense
MAYDAY is my god...


走在风中 今天阳光 突然好温柔天的温柔
地的温柔 像你抱着我然后发现 你的改变
孤单的今后如果冷 该怎么渡过 天边风光
身边的我 都不在你眼中你的眼中 藏着什么
我从来都不懂没有关系 你的世界 就让你拥有不打扰
是我的温柔 不知道 不明了 不想要 为什么
我的心明明是想靠近 却孤单的黎明不知道 不明了
不想要 为什么 我的心那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里再把我的最好的爱给你 不知不觉
不情不愿 又到巷子口我没有哭 也没有笑 因为这是梦没有预兆
没有理由 你真的有说过如果有 就让你自由这是我的温柔

Walking in the wind, today the sun has suddenly turned quite mild and tender
The heavens are tender, the earth is tender, just like you holding me
Then suddenly I discover you’ve changed and I’ll be lonely from now on;
If it’s cold, how should I pass the days
The wind and light in the heavens, me by your side, you don’t see any of it
I’ve never understood what was hidden in your eyes
It doesn’t matter, your world makes you feel complete;
Not disturbing you is my tenderness
I don’t know, don’t understand, don’t want to ask why my heart
So clearly wants to get closer but by daylight is alone
I don’t know, don’t understand, don’t want to ask why my heart
Always finds the beauty of love in loneliness,
I’ll give my best love to you once more
Unconsciously, unwillingly, I return to your alley once again
I don’t cry and I don’t smile, because it’s all a dream
No prerequisites, no excuses, we’ve said it all before
If it’s what you want, I’ll let you have your freedom.
I don’t know, don’t understand, don’t want to ask why my heart
So clearly wants to get closer but by daylight is alone
I don’t know, don’t understand, don’t want to ask why my heart
Always finds the beauty of love in loneliness,
I’ll give my best love to you once more
This is my tenderness…

TRADITIONAL CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and
produce twenty times the milk.
You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market
them World-Wide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and
milk themselves.

A BRITISH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You break for lunch.

A SWISS CORPORATION
You have 5,000 cows and none of which belong to you.
You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them.
You claim full employment and high bovine productivity.
You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at RM0.06 per litre.
Then midway through, you raised the price to RM0.60 or you cut the supply.
When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and
now want RM1.20. The buyer decided you can keep the milk.
They go look for milk that comes from recycled cows or the cow urine
instead. Your two cows retire together with the Prime Minister.

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
One cow-peh and one cow-bu

went to watch shek last week
pretty good
funny
relax me alot
after that we went to istana park to chat a lil
really wanted to drink
donno
just a really right atmosphere to do so u know
talk abt how the 3 of us feel abt each other
me mel and jer
oh gosh
isnt that what middle age woman will do
WOOO lets talk abt how we feel
hahahahha
its great that the libbies are really willing to speak out wat we think abt each other
really felt that it was impt
instead of back stabbing and all

abt me
hmmm
mel hit bulls eye
i change alot
i change when the situation around me change
its a good thing
but ppl wouldnt know how to act around me cause they don know who i am at that moment
am i weak
or am i strong
i suppose
....
at a really young age i've learnt more that wat ppl give me credit for
my mom always wanted me to change
to be flexible
open to ideas
relantionship
which is why i jump head in
into my 1st 3 really failed relantionship
all the 3 i was weak
i did all they asked me to (not sex u pervs)
i was the willing
i'll-walk-till-the-end-of-earth-for-you girlfriend
and they were shitty boyfriends
the 1st cheated on me
the 2nd was emotionally fucked up
the 3rd nearly killed me
after that i had to change
i learnt that i cant be weak
i cant remain the same at all time
i have to change
i have to be strong when the time comes
i have to be heartless when i need to
i have to be brave when everyone is falling
when there are weak moments when the burden becomes too heavy
i closed myself up because i believed that when i show my weakness fucked ups 1 2 and 3 or those alike will come knocking at my door
i cant have that again
never ever again

to those who want to understand me
just know this
i am strong cause i want to be strong
but that doesnt mean i'm always so
i am still a girl/lady/woman/female
i have my emotions too
u cant just hurl comments at me
and expect me to pick it up like a man
i might joke
say its ok its cool
but in this lil place inside
i do feel a lil hurt
i change because i feel its right
when ppl tell me to change i will only do so when i think its right
(a lot of times it is... i have very good friends/fam)
i need some TLC too
i just feel that because i seem so strong
sometimes ppl tend to think i'm ok
i need TLC too

just really havin a lot in my mind
i'm amazed by how much my brain can store
like i can think abt dozens of things at the same time
work can link to money
money to my bday
bday to the location
location to money again
money then to studies
future plans
work or school
family friends
dreams
wishes
soo sooo many things
i think i'm going crazy
even when i slp
I DREAM ABT IT
i don have enough sleep
cause my brain refuse to relax and stop thinking abt these things decisions
my mind is like a ADD child on drugs
its so hyped up that 1 day i might go insane
which this blog is impt
i can let go some load
and allow some more to come on broad

i really need to go KL
HOLIDAY!!!!

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