Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I LOVE MIKA
he's songs are super nice
real cute too
puts me in a good mood...
which means a WHOLE lot at the mo
i'm just goin throu this depress stage right now
i have no confidence in my looks or wat so ever
just really really down
my attempts to make myself happy failed badly
i gain weight
WHICH made it alot worse
as if i don feel shitty enough
kinda regret the hair now
makes my face look round
PLUS the weight gain
i can just cry!!!!
work is stressful
depressing even
tried collecting fees from some parents
WOW i've nvr seen ppl run that fast before...
i mean come on la
some of u pay like 5 bucks a mth
we're a freaking charity org
ur ciggies cost more than a mth's fees can
but STILL they run
give lotsa reasons
pity the kids boi...

anyway i'm still undergoing my mayday music therapy
helping a lil
listening to them makes me feel a lil better
but somehow
this time is not enough
i donno why
is like i need to hear them live maybe
i got their last concert dvd
kinda made me more determined to go
but without anyone to go with
i might as well kill myself...
they got this song
nvr really meant alot till now
is call camouflage
i kinda need that now
but till then
i'm gonna cont jabbin myself with their music

JA I NEED TO SING
KBOX SOON PLEASE


忘了珍惜 忘了回 摔坏心爱的玩具
学着远离 学着放弃 学着在没有

天空的城 在解体
爱过 所以特 伤心

最后我
开始武装自己 用眼泪 过自己
最后我
开始武装自己 强化 软弱的心
最后我
开始武装自己 有名字 没有个性
最后我
开始武装自己 我活着 用我的逻辑

收藏恐惧 爱上恐惧 那就再没有恐惧
要我忍受 给我生命 谁给了我血液

流出身体 的声音
还你 我不稀罕 东西

我活着
杀出我命运

I’ve forgotten what’s precious, forgotten memory, broken the toys I once loved so much
I’ve learned to keep my distance, learned how to give up, learned how never again to have memories
The city of heaven is found by separating from the body; I’ve loved before, so I’m especially broken-hearted

At last I start to camouflage myself, using my tears to wash myself
At last I start to camouflage myself, wanting to strengthen my weak heart
At last I start to camouflage myself, I’ll have a name but no personality
At last I start to camouflage myself, I’ll live by my logic

I’ve stored up terror, fell in love with terror, now I’ll never be terrified again
Who wants me to endure, gave me life, who gave me blood
The sound of it bleeding from this body, I’ll return it to you, this thing I don’t cherish

At last I start to camouflage myself, using my tears to wash myself
At last I start to camouflage myself, wanting to strengthen my weak heart
At last I start to camouflage myself, I’ll have a name but no personality
At last I start to camouflage myself, I’ll live by destroying my destiny

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