miss cathy

libs was supose to meet today
but due to cow's FAB family members
it was cancelled
really worried abt her
and was really really upset when i met ja
i mean
COME ON
i waited frm 12 pm
waited for a reply
a confirmation of us meeting for sure
so i was pretty much weak when ja came
got really emo
and started crying
i don understand
why r we running
why r we avoiding
i was worried ( perharps i worry too much )
wanted ppl to reply ( when they r busy/ not in the mood to reply )
so i admit
i'm a kan jong spider
and when a kanjong spider is worried abt something
SHE IS VERY WORRIED
and the kanjong-ness x 1000000000
so when i got the reply frm some of my libbies
( and it really isnt wat i expected )
i got upset
really upset
i waited for 3 hrs
sat at pacific coffee company
wanting to pee
BUT CANT
hit my head when i bend down to pick up my book
ON THE FREAKING MARBLE TABLE
and i waited for a reply
FRM ANYONE
but alas
NONE
so when ja came
and she reasons with me
calm me down
i just BROKE DOWN
cried buckets
just to make it clear
i don blame anyone
NOONE
i understand
i overreact
and i can be super overwhelming
over protective
i'm a very OVER and EXTREME person
and i say things i don mean ALL THE TIME ( esp when i'm pissed )
but really deep down
i just care
for all of u ( IN A VERY EQUAL WAY )
if i have to play messenger
if i have to make u understand other person's point of view
i will
i have to keep us going
keep the bond strong
libidos r strong headed ppl
we rarely change our minds
and we keep our pain and problems hidden
all i wanted today was to meet up and talk abt this
and most imply i wanted to thank all of u
u guys r my support system

if i've offended any1 with my extreme kanjong-ness today
i'm sorry
really...

talking to ja help me realise how overwhelming i can get
how hard it is for them...
and when they played michael buble's home
i just stared crying and crying
so emo
i know

i miss my libbies



"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?? Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
Its like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home