I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

"These Walls"

I can't believe what is in front of me
The water's rising up to my knees
And I can't figure out
How the hell I wound up here
Everything seemed okay when I started out the other day
Then the rain came pouring down
And now I'm drowning in my fears
And as I watch the setting sun
I wonder if I'm the only one

[Chorus]
Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before
I gotta step outside these walls

I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me too afraid to ask
And as I look ahead of me
I try and pray for sanity

[chorus]

These walls can't be my haven
These walls can't keep me safe here
And now I guess I gotta let them down

Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes, yeah
Even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before

I got to break out...
I got to break out...
I got to step outside these walls
Love outside these walls
I feel my heart breaking
But its a brand new day
I'm going down
I'm stepping out
I'm stepping outside
These walls
(I've seen it done before.. I'm walking on, I'll walk it off, oh I'm moving on)

my fav fav fav song of all time
i love mayday
suddenly i just felt i cant be happy
put vanness in front of me
and i still cant be happy
the bbq went ok
was a lil upset
but then i'm always upset when things i plan don go my way
i'm a brat i know it
there are so many conflicting feelings inside of me now
i feel like i'm gonna break soon
maybe is true that i don tell ppl how i feel...
true
but understand
just because i don cry in front of ya
that don mean i don cry at all
i can be understanding
but pls don go overboard.
don think that i'm always here
don
cause i think
i'm gonna disappear
be alone
like i always am
i have to reach out
ya
but sometimes i need someone to give me their hand
cause
i'm too proud
too tired
too bruised
to reach out...
ya donno wat i'm thinkin
true
but will it kill
to just msg...
just 1 msg
1 tag
i'm trying to surround myself will pillows
cause i feel like i'm gonna fall soon
yet i feel thats not enough
so so tired
sosososo bruised
damaged
dark and twisty

知足
(Contented)

怎么去拥有 一道彩虹
(How to own a rainbow)
怎么去拥抱 一夏天的风
(How to embrace the summer breeze)
天上的星星 笑地上的人
(The stars in the sky are laughing at the people on the ground)
总是不能懂 不能觉得足够
(That they always can't understand, always not contended)

如果我爱上 你的笑容
(If I love your smile)
要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
(How do I keep it / How do I own it?)
如果你快乐 不是为我
(If you're happy not because of me)
会不会放手 其实才是拥有
(Will it be that letting go is actually possessing?)

当一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
(When the wind blows, The kite fly up the sky)
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
(I pray for you, wish for you, I'm touched for you)
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头
(Finally your silhoutte disappears in the crowd)
才发现 笑着哭 最痛
(I realize crying with a smile is the most painful)

那天你和我 那个山丘
(That day, you and me / That little hill)
那样的唱着 那一年的歌
(We were singing that old song)
那样的回忆 那么足够
(That kind of memory is enough for me)
足够我天天 都品尝着寂寞
(Enough for me to enjoy the loneliness everyday)

一阵风吹来 风筝飞上天空
(When the wind blows, The kite fly up the sky)
为了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
(I pray for you, wish for you, I'm touched for you)
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头
(Finally your silhoutte disappears in the crowd)
才发现 笑着哭 最痛
(I realize crying with a smile is the most painful)

如果我爱上 你的笑容
(If I love your smile)
要怎么收藏 要怎么拥有
(How do I keep it / How do I own it?)
如果你快乐 不是为我
(If you're happy not because of me)
会不会放手 其实才是拥有
(Will it be that letting go is actually possessing?)

知足的快乐 叫我忍受心痛
(The happiness of being contended has helped me bear the pain)

wow
i haven blogged for a long long time
too busy i guess
life's kinda weird
the way things works out
like
my job my family
all this stuff was really getting to my head
like my future blahblahblah
if i'm even going to cont studying and if we can afford it
then
something happens again
i'm gonna get the chance to travel and work at the same time
the travelling part might come alil later
but still
i always wanted to be a tour guide
hahahahahahahahaha
sure i'm upset abt it
not sturdying i mean
but i cant be selfish
just hope that my fam actually realize this.
really like my job now
got to know lots of ppl
friends even.
miss the libs
COW CALL ME NOW I'M WORRIED
BEA SMS ME I LOST UR NUMBER (long story)
the other 3 normal ppl mel ja and jer...
pls org a meet up or something cause when i plan u all are not free
SOOOOO
u plan....
the 2 songs
the kill frm 30 seconds to mars
breathe by anna nalick
love them
cant really say thats how i feel at the mo
but breathe is like my way of livin now
....
wait
i cant breathe
cause the fuckin haze is killin me
thank u indo
for your lovely present...
ekkkkkkk
my eyes hurt...
cant breathe....

"Breathe (2 AM)"

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.