wolf guy got a name Oliver Goodwill
muahahaha
he's HOT

evanescence's new song
call me when you're sober
really nice and the guy's real hot hahahaha
had a great birthday
thank u libs and all my dearies
exp my fam
hmmm
no big celebration
but it went well
i should have known
hahaha
expect nothing
and they will surprise you

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Should I let you fall
Lose it all
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over

How could I have burned paradise
How could I - you were never mine!

So don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your mind

new moto
if u have nothing gd to say DON SPEAK
wat else is new
I GOT A NEW JOB
GO SHORTY GO SHORTY GOGOGO SHORTY
back at CPF
better that !#$%%% place
with that !!!!####%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% chee wei
andandand
most impt

I SAW THE FACE OF GOD
but i donno his name
WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH
all i know is he study in our sch
WAAAAAAAAA
and in not local
no local can look like that

AND

i decided
I HAD ENOUGH OF DATES
the flirting
the hunt
the breakups
the next guy i truly go out with
is the person i will spend the rest of my life with
in other words
i'll go into a relantionship
with marriage in mind
yupz
nvr thot i'll say this but yeah
u might say
but that will freak a guy out
u see this is wat i believe
i'm not gonna tell him on the 1st date
i'm not gonna plan the wedding name our kids
i'm gonna take it easy
and if he feels i'm not his marrying type
BYEBYE
i outta there
no tears
till i find the one

now for some psyco rantings

I WANT THAT GUY
gosh he's so CUTE
AND HOT
we'll have wonderful babies
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

KOOKOO

Fools Like Me"

Everybody go
The party's over
I want to be alone in my head
In my bed tonight
You never show

You must really love her
You think I don't know
But I do, yeah it's true
I think over is over

I'm right back where I started
(when it comes to wanting you)
I can't have what I wanted

[Chorus]
But I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed
If love is blind
If love's a drug
It always is
It always was and
Love was surely made for fools like me

I know where I'm going
I'm tripping I'm sliding around
That's ok
At least I'm excited
It wasn't how I planned it
(wasn't how I planned it
Feet are where I landed
At least I understand it now)
My feet are where I landed
(feet are staying on the ground)
[Chorus]

Fools like me
Fools like me

I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed

Maybe it's the sanest thing
Or just the sweetest kind of dream
But love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools like me

HIS ROYAL HOTNESS

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales
that fantasy of what your life would be white dress prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill
You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith
Santa Claus
the Tooth Fairy
Prince Charming
they were so close you could taste them
but eventually you grow up
one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears
Most people turn to the things and people they can trust
But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope
of faith
that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing
It turns up when you don't really expect it
It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed
The castle
well
it may not be a castle
And it's not so important happy ever after
just that its happy right now
See once in a while
once in a blue moon
people will surprise you
and once in a while people may even take your breath away

I know it's not perfect, but it's life. Life is messy sometimes

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass
And when the dam bursts
all you can do is swim
The world of pretend is a cage
not a cocoon
We deny that we're tired
we deny that we're scared
we deny how badly we want to succeed
And most importantly
we deny that we're in denial
We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe
and it works
We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth
We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces
We can only lie to ourselves for so long

We are tired

we are scared

denying it doesn't change the truth

Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world

Head on guns blazing

De Nile

It's not just a river in Egypt

it's a freakin' ocean

Communication

It's the first thing we really learn in life

Funny thing is

once we grow up

learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say

Or how to ask for what we really need

How do you know when how much is too much?

Too much too soon

Too much information

Too much fun

Too much love

Too much to ask

And when is it all just too much to bear?

At the end of the day

there are some things you just can't help but talk about

Some things we just don't want to hear

and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer

Some things are more than what you say

they're what you do

Some things you say cause there's no other choice

Some things you keep to yourself

And not too often

but every now and then

some things simply speak for themselves

Maybe we're not supposed to be happy

Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy

Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is

Appreciating small victories

Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human

Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know

And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know

At the end of the day

the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate

"You Oughta Know"

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

When it doesn't rain it snores
Yeah the cookie crumbles but in who's hand?
All things said and all things done
Life is short

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done...life's too short

Ooooh could this be....
Ooooh could this be the day I've waited for?

Another door to peek in through
The floor is filthy
But the couch is clean
At the end of the day
That's another day gone
Life is short....Ooo life is short

Ooooh
Could this be....
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is short

Ooooh
Could this be...
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...