miss cathy

yes i've been ranting
yes i'm pissed off
very pissed actually
sick and tired of chasing after ppl
both at work and out
cleaning after ppl
getting answers out of them is like pulling their teeth out
just tired
of the word friends
wat does it mean
they call me in their time of need
i worry for them stood by them
sure
u might say
hmm u shouldnt think abt ppl payin u back
i'm not asking for a present
not askin for money
not asking for gold or diamonds
just asking for a friend to care
to ask
r u alright
wats wrong
but that nvr came
my so called friends nvr called
nvr ask
even when i reach out for them
they were too busy
to bother to care
in wat i considered my darkest and most emotional time in recent years
those friends nvr came
oh how the great has fallen
i tried to tell myself i don need any of these so called freinds
but i cant help by feel disappointed
at all of them
disappointed
really
maybe thats y they always say friendships cant last forever
new ppl r coming into my life
they helped me throu all
maybe is because we're busy
thats y we stop caring
our own problems
seriously
SERIOUSLY
i don care now
don care abt exams
don even think i'm going for it
don have candies because of my unrealistic expectations
HAHA
i guess is just too much to even depend on someone to get that job done
don care abt health
yes i like eating
and i don give a shit if u think i'm fat
don care abt work
and wat fuckin chee fuckin wei fucking thinks
and abt gossip backstabbin
i cant help but worry abt my family
my school
future
i do care abt those 3
but the others
seriously
FUCK THEM ALL