yes i've been ranting
yes i'm pissed off
very pissed actually
sick and tired of chasing after ppl
both at work and out
cleaning after ppl
getting answers out of them is like pulling their teeth out
just tired
of the word friends
wat does it mean
they call me in their time of need
i worry for them stood by them
sure
u might say
hmm u shouldnt think abt ppl payin u back
i'm not asking for a present
not askin for money
not asking for gold or diamonds
just asking for a friend to care
to ask
r u alright
wats wrong
but that nvr came
my so called friends nvr called
nvr ask
even when i reach out for them
they were too busy
to bother to care
in wat i considered my darkest and most emotional time in recent years
those friends nvr came
oh how the great has fallen
i tried to tell myself i don need any of these so called freinds
but i cant help by feel disappointed
at all of them
disappointed
really
maybe thats y they always say friendships cant last forever
new ppl r coming into my life
they helped me throu all
maybe is because we're busy
thats y we stop caring
our own problems
seriously
SERIOUSLY
i don care now
don care abt exams
don even think i'm going for it
don have candies because of my unrealistic expectations
HAHA
i guess is just too much to even depend on someone to get that job done
don care abt health
yes i like eating
and i don give a shit if u think i'm fat
don care abt work
and wat fuckin chee fuckin wei fucking thinks
and abt gossip backstabbin
i cant help but worry abt my family
my school
future
i do care abt those 3
but the others
seriously
FUCK THEM ALL

school
work
friends
money
doubts
problems
FUCK THEM ALL

MY LOVE... FOR SHOES

i truely feel like i'm drowning

sharrifah's leave starts today
doc's gonna help her induce birth tml
miss her

my work load increase by lots
bank might not approve my study loans
as if thats not bad enough
u have to go do it again!!!

ja i told u NOT to call tim
i'll handle it
but nooooooooo
whole new set of problems
AGAIN
THANK YOU
I HAVE TO SETTLE THEM AGAIN
I DON WANT TO CLEAR UP AFTER U
DO U KNOW THAT
REALLY

u want to help
i know
u want to help
WELL HELP ME BY LISTENING

i said don call
u thot he had the rite to know!!!!
now he wont stop calling olivia
and who have to apologise
ME AGAIN

STOP HELPING ME CAUSE IT'LL ONLY CAUSE MORE PROBLEMS
STOP
STOP
STOP!!!!!!!!!

STOP CALLING IT HELP WHEN THINGS R GOING FRM BAD TO WORSE

REALLY REALLY REALLY STRESSED RITE NOW

friends
wat an ugly word
best friends
a total joke
nvr calls when she promise she will
ignores me when i'm sick
causes more trouble than any1 else
nvr listens to my troubles but i have to carry theirs
i'm a total failure

maybe isolation is the best

whoever said what you dont know wont hurt you
must be an idiot
because not knowing is the worst feeling in the whole world

angry
upset
disappointed
all mixed in 1
angry at myself for trusting alex to take care of puppy
angry at alex for just throwing her at jer's house without asking him if is ok
angry at jer for not telling me that he's having trouble
angry at ja for not asking me when she decided to give puppy away

she's suppose to be in my house now
RIGHT NOW
alex coulndnt come over
i could have went
did u all consider that at all

i wanted alex to give her back yest midnite
MIDNITE
alex left it at jer's house agaisnt my wishes
when there's problem y'all didnt call me
didnt tell me
y'all made a decision to give it away
then call it helping me
WAT THE HELL
y'all didnt even ask me if i needed help
HELPING ME HOW

no i cant take her back now
if zy really loves her
i don mind
i'm willing to give puppy away
very willing

now i'm not angry or upset that puppy's been given away
i'm angry because y'all did it behind my back

y'all r having troubles yet NONE of u said anything
then u blame me for not asking
not saying i want puppy

I DID I TOLD ALEX TO BRING IT OVER

GET IT

none of u ask me if i wanted to give her away
none of u said a thing until i ask alex
then u blame me for not calling jer

yes i'm pissed
i'm very very very pissed

Was just reading my libidos blogs

Disappointed at some

Clueless

Alil shocked

I miss my libidos

But sometimes I really donno wat to think

What I'm trying to say is

I like asian music

Well some asian music

I do my research before I speak

I know asian underground bands

I can tell good music and bad apart

Without categorizing them all under bad

Call me patriotic

Call me cheena

Or whatever

I believe in asian pride

'm proud for being Chinese

Proud of being asian

Proud of my grandpa

His hard work in building a business

A nobody from china to a respectable figure in the haka community

A respectable figure in his old village where he donates money to build schools and roads

You cant blame me for being proud

So when I see young Asians disowning their culture

Living in their own boxes

Looking at asian culture

Whether is music,fashion or speech

In a "why am I born asian" way

You cant blame me for feeling disappointed

I proud of being bilingual

I can express myself in mandarin and English

I can express myself every every well

Can you???

So yeah I'm disappointed when I read jeremy’s blog

He's smart

But sometimes I truly wonder what blinded him

Into looking at asian culture with contempt

And with shame

Guess both of us are never gonna agree on this

procrastination thy name is cathy
i am not doing my IT assignment
i'm blogging
i'm so dead

oh ya
jaja
pls do not used words like
remembered
missed
they're in past tense for a reason
i just realise u use "missed" on me too
i get wat u mean
but pls take note ya

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