miss cathy

i'm back y'all
hahaha
i'm supose to finish this post on the 31st
but then i went out
things i have to do 1 after another
so i delay this till now
and is time for me to do my end of yr thanks and BURN list

FINALLY
went kbox
thanks ja for acc-ing me
i know i cant sing for NUTS
but i still like too
sorry if i torture u ya
the past wk have been a busy one for me
went to settle some stuff
talk over problems that have been going on the past 10 yrs
in someway or another
i found peace over the week
the 24 hr flight over i couldnt slp cause i wanted answers
i list a whole lot of qns
the 2o hr flight back
i slept knowing that if i die now
i have all the answers i ever need
and that is perhaps enough for me

the past yrs have been
well for the lack of a better word
DRAMA-MAMA-MATIC
same as the last
friends come and go
but this yr
i'm really glad i found
in the mist of losses
i found a grp that truely belong

my libidos
frm the little weird far fetched idea
(u can tell by the name)
came the bestest(i know is not a word) best best
friends i ever had
they were there for me this yr
with me during my break ups(which i nvr told them)
but still with me

bea,
my atm my i'm-bored-i-wanna-do-something-do-it-with-me
just realise most of my outings i went with u
most of the movies i watch this yr is with u
when i broke up i told u 1st
both of us have the same toothfy lil problem
thankz for making mybday this yr not as bad as the past
pretty happy with my bday this yr
hahahahahhaha
thankz for acc-ing me to bangkok
our shopping trips
wheeeee
pray for me that i find a job and save enough moola
so we can go again b4 u go aus

cow,
looking at u make me love my family more
JOKING JOKING
hehehehe
thankz for your pep talk
abt my butt
and ur i'm-so-fat
making me feel fatter
STOP DOING THAT
u're thin like hell already
any thinner i cant see u anymore
thankz for makein my bday a blast too
for ur letters
hahaha
i can totally feel ya lov
hehehehehe
now heres mine
thankz for being there for me when i'm feelin shitty
by telling me ur shit and both of us comparing how shitty it is for us now
thankz for "missing" me when u'm gone
i still cant believe u guys nvr knew i was missing till the 4th day
man
i hope i nvr die alone at home cuase by the time u guys notice i was gone i rot till nobody's business already
hahaha

ja,
my triplet
the sane one
thankz for being by my side throu it all
the yr has been a sad one for u
full of changes
but some changes r good
u need to move on
don go back
don repeat the same mistakes
remember the pain that has been caused and don go back
a fool is someone who forgives and forget
nvr forget
never

mel,
u seem to have this smoothing effect on ppl
calms ppl down
haha
don really get to see u alot
since u're in the air force now
hahahahahahahahha
but still have to say thankz to u
when all the emotions are going hay wired insude me
u will give me 1 of ur "talks"
don know why
but after it i seem to be able to control myself better
unless is with jeremy then i'll nvr be able to do it
haha
just call me if u have any problems ya
might not be the best problem selver
but my ears r all urs

jer,
u in the other hand
is the person i worry abt most in libidos
insensitive to the point of rude
think that u know alot abt woman to the point of naive
u tend to talk b4 u think
and that hurts
so i tend to insult u b4 u can insult me
but then
u need to understand something
u need to grow up
to stop thinking that every1 have to cater to ur emotional needs
there will be days when we're not in a good mood
u have to right to feel bad
but wat u do not have is the rite to make others feel bad
by showing ur moody unhappy restlessness to everyone
puts us in a bad mood too
just remember
a person who wears their emotions proudly is no one but a fool

when i say ups and downs
i really meant it
family wise
will
the only good thing that came out of it is the fact that she is in aust
I'M FREE OF INSULTS
haha
but this yr i also realise something
when god gave me her as a cous
he also gave me a gift
which i train extra hard in 2005
and i learn to embrace my sarcasm
haha

well
2005 have been ok yr
is over
and i'll like to put it behind me
byebye