i need to vent
and this is where i vent
so to the ppl who r offended by the msn post
i'm sorry
this is how i vent
like u all writing it on ur msn nick
i blog
thats the way it is
no politics
no hurtin
no bitch
i've nvr since my 1st breakup tell ppl to take sides
politics only happens when ppl do just tat
i understand and i did make the rule
the person who cries 1st wins
the person who complains 1st wins
the person who vent and blame the other party wins
in all cases i lost
cause other ppl r faster
i just chose to think alone
however misunderstood
however slamed
however backlash
i took it headon
forgive and forget
but understand this
everyone bitch
everyone vent
i choose to be cynical
sarcastic
and i mock
to perharps cover my insecurities
weaknesses
i can be down rite depressing if i want to
i can tell all of u every single problems i have
i don have to be cynical
i can be depressing
i can be happy go lucky
but then
i'm back to being lost
if i don like u
u'll know
if i don like something
u'll know
thats the way i am
i don play politics
i don tell everyone how sad my life is
i only tell ppl i trust
yes i'm pissed with the world
wishing that i will just die
that my past demons don come to me
but i cant
i chose to cover it
if u all r not happy
so be it
i don care anymore

my oh my
i'm in a gossip kinda mood
and i have to say this
nick lachey and jessica simpson simpson split up
yupz
is confirmed
wow
i mean it will mean A HELL LOT to me if i'm still 15
and 98 degrees are still hot
i used to LOVE nick lachey
and cussed the daylights off when i knew he got married
but then it was short lived
as i found vanness
the ever so hot no gf or wife vanness
hehe
oh wellz
need to catch some Zs
so long and good nite

ahhh cuties










cute and funny hehehehehe

i love daniel radcliffe
don have james and oliver phelps
too bad
cause i love them more
haha

man i'm depress
why in the freaking world do i go on msn in the first place is beyond me
suddenly feel like dementors are around me
now i know how harry potter feels
like i can nvr be happy again
yupz
i do wish i can be like harry potter
know magic
attend wizard sch
study defence against the dark arts instead of ECONS
learn how to hex ppl
i know who's at the top of my list
oh well there's only 1 person anyway
not much of a list
i need to change my blog skin
kinda bored with this already
haha
oh well
choc helps after dementors attacks
gonna have some now
since MSN= dementors

ppl been askin me y i've stopped coming online
msn
i'm gonna solved it for ya
ppl who i wanna talk to r overseas rite now
and cant come on msn
and when i go on msn
this is wat happen

me: man i.m happy i wanna make myself happy lets go msn and talk to my friends
go on msn as <%*CaThY*%>: "(some funny intersting quotes)"
on msn look at my friends nicks

i'm depressed
i miss her
she don love me
i wanna die
drown me
kill me
hell is here
sad sad sad

ETC

me: man now i'm not happy anymore

HELLO PEOPLE
HOW IN THE FUCKING WORLD CAN I TALK TO U GUYS THIS WAY
IS LIFE REALLY THAT BAD
THAT YOU HAVE TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT U'RE UPSET
THAT EVERYTIME I GO ONLINE
I SEE HOW DEPRESSING LIFE IS
IS IT REALLY THAT BAD
OR ARE YOU ALL JUST DRAMA MAMAS AND PAPAS
HAVE TO TELL EVERYONE KNOW THAT UR LIFE IS SO BAD THAT U WANNA DIE
OFTEN LIFE IS BAD BECAUSE OF BFS GFS AND FAMILY
HEY
IF EVRYONE ACTS LIKE U THERE WILL BE NO HAPPY PPL ANYMORE
AND BEA DEF CHOOSE THE RITE COURSE TO TAKE

BEA you can earn alot in to future
i'll just give u the names in my msn account
the depressing ones
and that will make you rich very very rich
cause they have different things to get depress abt everyday
and me i feel like deleting my msn account
you ppl depress me so

and unlike u winers
i found a way to solve my sadness
STOP LOOKING AT YOUR NICKS!!!!!

just watch harry potter
i felt empty after coming out
not hungry
just emotions empty
i have to say is kinda disappointing
for a harry potter fan that is
for ppl who read the bk u'll know why
for ppl who wants to watch the movie
and don want me to spoilt it
pls don read this post
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I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!
i was waiting and waiting and waiting to see how the veelas looks like
BUT! BUT! BUT!
THAY DON HAVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!
how abt the fact that fred and george are inventing tricks for they're tricks shop
NOOOOOOOOOOO
ton tongue toffee WHERE IS IT!!!!
how abt the camps
the nice show off camps
NOOOOOOO
all i see is just freaking NORMAL tents
the match!!!!
if u call it a match that is
i cant even tell who won if i nvr read the book!!!!
oh ya ireland won but krum got the snitch
didi they show that in the movie
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
btw harry and the weasleys were suppose to be at the vip section
were they in the movie
NOOOOOOOOOO
oh ya WHERE'S WINKY!!!!
i think i need to put up a missing winky poster!!!!!
and SPEW WHERE IS IT
HOGWARTS KITCHEN
GONE!
DOBBY WHERE'S DOBBY
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i'm upset
hermione
oh my head
krum likes her
SHE DON LIKE KRUM AND THINKS QUIDDITCH IS DUMB
in the movie WHAT HAPPEN
SHE GO GAGA OVER KRUM AND LIKES FREAKING QUIDDITCH!!!!!
OH MY HEAD
WHERE IS THE MAGIC
THE HER FRONT TEETH GOT SMALLER
WHERE!!!!!!!
and crouch DID NOT DIE IN FRONT OF HARRY
he just lie there
and crouch jr
THEY DIDNT SHOW WHAT HAPPEN TO HIM IN THE END
dementor's kiss
WHERE!!!!!!!
the fact that madame maxime was using hagrid
NOOOOOO
they were in love frm the beginning
how abt rita being a unregisted animagus
being caught by hermione
and treatens that if she writes any more stuff abt harry
she's expose her
NOOOOOOO
don have
that is VERY IMPT in the next book
so is harry giving fred and george money for the joke shop in the next book
how abt rita writing mean things abt hagrid harry hermione
and all of them getting into deep shit becasue of it
NOOOOOOOO
all gone
the whole freaking movie spend so much time on the tri wizrd that they TOTALLY forgot abt the next
the magical parts
the things that makes harry potter so damn gd
where r the magical creatures
gosh
AND AND AND AND AND
MOST IMPTLY
THE REASON Y I'M SO FREAKIN PISSED
DUMBLEDORE GRAB HARRY AND SCOLDED HIM
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
IS NOT IN THE FREAKING BK
AND DUMBLEDORE IS SUPPOSE TO BE KIND AND PATIENT AND NICE TO HARRY
NOT FREAKIN OUT
NOT GRABBING HARRY LIKE THAT
NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THIS MOVIE TOTALLY RUINED MY DREAMS
MY BELOVED BOOK
MY FAV BOOK
THIS MOVIE RUINED IT
ARRRGGGGHHHHHH
SUPER FUCKITY FUCK
there's more to write abt but i just tired already
just makes me more upset

ahhhh vanness so freaking cute

1st of all
sorry ja
i went to watch dragon squad already
decided i need some me time
but i don mind watching again
cause vanness is so super freakinliciously cute
the story plot is kinda thin
just a mob boss got kidnapped while on his way to court
and
vanness is frm FBI
shawn frm hk car racing police dept or something
then there this british scotland yard guy
and a china snaper
and a hk undercover female cop
all of them have help arrest this guy in the 1st place
now he's gone
kidnapped by a north korean terrorist grp and a former US navy seal who wants revenge for his died bro
the whole story is just violent
by violent i mean alot of blood action and cut off limbs
not like kill bill where the blood flows like river (that was a lil bit too much)
but the normal CORRECT flow
the movie also like to have lots of flashbacks some which i thot was NOT needed

the movie is good not only beccause vanness is cute
thats a bonus
but the whole cast is really strong
really entertaining to watch summo hong fight
he's really GOOD for someone who looks like he's 7 mths pregnant
when they were filming this movie they kept saying that andy on was gonna be 1 of the lead
i don like him
cause as a vanness fan i can still remember the hk film awards last yr!!!!
when he won best new comer he told vanness to go on the stage with him
WTF
vanness lost u don have to double the pain for us rite
but is ok is ok
in dragon squad he only appear for 5 mins
so i could control the urge to throw popcorn at him
i LOVE the ending
vanness acted really well
just wish i have the vcd with the orginal voice
cause i think most of the scenes he was speaking in english
and i wanna heard shawn speak canto
hehehehehehe

watched emily rose the other day
wow
creepy
have quite afew movies i wanna watch
dragon squad DUH is vanness
HARRY POTTER ahhhhhh
all the waiting finally!!!!
3 more days
but don think i'll be able to get the tix
since i'm not the only one waiting for it
i'll just watch vanness first then watch
GOF next week
muahahaha

waiting for king kong to open
looks interesting
but then got dinos
WTF
great way to ruin a gal's dreams
don really like movies with dinos and aliens
memoirs of a geisha looks good
saw the preview when i was watching emily rose
love the book
waiting for the movie
yaaaaaa
aeon flux looks good too
charlize theron looks freaking HOT
wanna watch prime too
starring merly streep and uma thurman
however the must must must must must watch for me
SAW 2
CHICKEN LITTLE
PERHAPS LOVE
hehehehhehehehe
don match huh
saw was GREAT
maybe the BEST psyco movie i've ever SEEN
so kinda waiting for the second one
muahahahahahaha
chicken little
come on
he's cute
for those who watched movies the past few mths
will the the ad b4 the movie start
the little dancing chicken
so freaking cute
that i wanna jump off my seat
in the screen and hug every living breath out of it
voiced by zach braff
that guy from scrubs
he is so funny in there
Perhaps love
a no brainer why i wanna waych this
TAKESHI KANESHIRO
hahaha
duh
total eye candy
plus great director peter chan
plus the 1st chinese musical movie
think chicago
hahahaha
yaaaa

was watching funny girl the one with barbra streisand
for my film studies assignment
really nice movie
can find alot to write abt
thats a good thing
love one of the lines in her song
people

we're children, needing other children. yet letting our grown up pride hiding the need inside. acting more like children than children

true rite
haha
or thats how i feel

i look like a over cooked lobster rite now
it freaking hurt lo

went to sentosa today
sun tanning with me libidos
without bea WAAAA
cause bea darling have to study for psy exams
highlights of the day
i tanned in my bra
yupz
is a front hook thing so u really cant tell
didnt intend to tan but decided too last min

2
I NEARLY DIED
u heard rite ppl
ja tried to murder me
she wanted to go to the raft in the middle of the sea
and i ask her if she can swim cause is really deep
and she said errr can la
so we swam over
but then when she reach there and her legs can no longer touch the sea floor
she panic
AND FORCE MY HEAD DOWN
i couldnt even get up to breathe
tried to swim up kick up and all
but she keep pushing my freaking head in
and wats worse
i can hear her calling ppl while i drown
luckily the lifeguard saved us
we did get a scolding when we got up
we?
i mean ME
he thot I COULDNT SWIM
HEY
i'm fat that don mean is me k
i happen to have a gold cert in swimming
so i freaked in front of him
so they only took ja's particulars
if they took mine and say i cant swim
i'll sue

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the spot i nearly drown seems to be the spot that guy died this year
near the raft
AHHHHHH
promise my dad that i'm NEVER swim at sentosa ever again
freaky huh