miss cathy

exams coming soon
pengz
and i'm getting sick every few days
GREAT
fever every few weeks
stupid
haven been sleeping very well
but then since when i slept well
haha
all the dreams
blahblahblah
like serials like that
can continue one
hahahahaha
esp 1 esp 2

really do not need all this shit when exams are so so near
i donno whether u will be reading this
BUT i still have to say

do u know u're very selfish
very very very selfish
we help u so many times
lie for u so many times
till now i'm still sticking to my lies
the ones i help u make
i'm tired already
i cant remember that many lies u know
i have to repeat it to ur parents
i'm not superwoman
i have to study too
i cant rememeber so much lies
i've made so much
i'm so going to hell
is very self centered of me to start all this with a "i"
but now is truely the time to stop thinking abt u abt friends before self
to u we're not impt
u broke all ur promises
u broke our trust
all because u want to run away
u nvr think abt ur actions and wat it will bring
u just want to run
just want to be in love
wat abt us
ur friends
the ppl that help u
supported u
we endured for so long already
calls for ur parents
get scolded by them
come on
the least u could do is back us up
not run away and let us clear up the mess
FOR U
i admit i'm not a saint
i lie to my parents too
i use my friends names
to go places they don allow me to go
but i jolly well know that my parents
they're not stupid
when they find out the truth
i'll tell them is my fualt
not my friends
i will not drag them in
i will back them up
is my lie
is my fualt
i handle the questioning the punishment
it happen once to me
and i lost a friend because of it
i regret not backing her up
admiting is my fualt
wat abt u
do u regret
?
i really don think so
if u do
u'll have return or contact us along time ago
do u even take this friendship seriously
or
is this all a joke to u
we're not impt
we're JUST friends
understand this
if not for us
JUST friends
u might not last this long
u might not see him that often
cause we will not be there to lie for u
or force to lie for u
half of the time i only found out that the lie is made
after u told ur parents
after it all happens
minutes or seconds before confrontation
have u thot abt us???

i'll leave the answer for u
for u to explain
rite now
i'm just disappointed
that u nvr back me up
thats all