miss cathy

been feeling down
just need to remind myself
that there was once a time when i was pure
naive
and believe that the whole world is sugar spice and everything nice
when i was young i knew more things abt ppl then i needed to
i know ppl don like me
i can feel things like that
i understand feelings kids at my age then don
but now
it became a curse
so much so that i stopped feeling
maybe because the 1st step i took i walked too fast
i was ahead of everyone
that made me a sad kid
the 2nd step i took was too slow
now i'm confused
gosh
i'm ignoring alot of things around me at the moment
ppl's feeling towards me pretty much means nothing to me already
frm disrespect to back stabbing
numb i'm suppose
there will be days when i hate looking at myself
hate wat i see
wat i've done
to be and have wat i am today
the thots in my mind can be ugly
perhaps is true
u hate that person because u see who u r in that person
perhaps i saw who i was
it takes 1 to know 1
i was like that
i hated it
when the ghost of ur past come back to u
there's nothing u can do to stop it
regret is all u can do
i just wanna lett that person know
stop lying
1 day in the future
u'll hate urself for it
ppl r not dumb
we know
but we don wanna say
and don give urself too much credit
u're not in our mind every single minute
i've learnt
i could care less
wat u do no longer matter
maybe is time for me to be soo heartless that i stop feeling anything
wait
that already happened