been feeling down
just need to remind myself
that there was once a time when i was pure
naive
and believe that the whole world is sugar spice and everything nice
when i was young i knew more things abt ppl then i needed to
i know ppl don like me
i can feel things like that
i understand feelings kids at my age then don
but now
it became a curse
so much so that i stopped feeling
maybe because the 1st step i took i walked too fast
i was ahead of everyone
that made me a sad kid
the 2nd step i took was too slow
now i'm confused
gosh
i'm ignoring alot of things around me at the moment
ppl's feeling towards me pretty much means nothing to me already
frm disrespect to back stabbing
numb i'm suppose
there will be days when i hate looking at myself
hate wat i see
wat i've done
to be and have wat i am today
the thots in my mind can be ugly
perhaps is true
u hate that person because u see who u r in that person
perhaps i saw who i was
it takes 1 to know 1
i was like that
i hated it
when the ghost of ur past come back to u
there's nothing u can do to stop it
regret is all u can do
i just wanna lett that person know
stop lying
1 day in the future
u'll hate urself for it
ppl r not dumb
we know
but we don wanna say
and don give urself too much credit
u're not in our mind every single minute
i've learnt
i could care less
wat u do no longer matter
maybe is time for me to be soo heartless that i stop feeling anything
wait
that already happened

After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wanna know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore

Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in dnial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't goin' stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

OH ALL THE SWEETNESS

I'm sick of all the sweetness around me these few weeks

A little too sweet for my taste

In other words

Tom cruise and Katie holmes

That couple who kiss from jurong east to when I got off the train

And u know who u r

The ppl who always try to suck off each other's faces in public

I’m not talking abt holding hands

Little kisses

Hugs

I do that too

In public

And I think

Seeing other couples doing that is sweet

Shows u care

Yada yada yada

But wat I'm talking abt

The EXTREME

A little bit too sweet

Pretty sick of watching the entertainment news

And when tom cruise is on the red carpet

With Katie holmes

THEY WILL BE KISSING

U see

This is how ppl's mind works

They see it once the 1st time

Ohhhh is sooo sweet

Twice oh sweet they're in love

3 nd time gosh they're still at it

4 th time can they stop it already

5 th time MEDIA WHORES

that's how I feel

sick of them

doing what they do on the red carpet

the couple on the train

I salute u

U two kissed and fonder each other frm jurong east MRT station to my station it took abt 35 minutes

And when I got off u 2 r still it

WAOH

I'm not saying that u cant show all these in public

I'm just saying whether if some ppl r doing a little too much

Too extreme

To the point is revolting

PUKADELIC

New word

Haha

closet reality show fan

i've decided to come out of the closet
i watched Eye for a guy
hahaha
i like reality shows
:P
the last esp
WHAT THE HECK
wolfgang won!!!!
i like howard soooo much better
he's so sweet
he makes me cry
but then
it all depends on denise
but still
will miss howard
(drama)
ohhhhh
be still my heart
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hahahahahahahahaha

i took the test too
hmmm

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

so much to live for

Been kinda down this few mths

After I came back for my last JB trip I saw a lot of things in a different light

My sis

Is a disappointment

My mom

Cant stop pushing me

They make me feel like trash

As a human I failed

Badly

I cant tell them things anymore

My sis is out to win the best daughter of the yr award

Which means everything I say will be used against me

Like she is a total saint

I just nvr complain to mom

Ppl who knows me best

Will know that there r things I keep to myself

I nvr say them out

See

My family don understand that

They think I'm carefree

In other words

I don give a shit abt any thing

I do

But they keep making me feel totally worthless

Plus

All the things around me

Ppl around me

Am I really that bad?

That ugly

That useless

Yesterday the thot of ending it all came to mind again

I hate all of this

Luckily my triplets were there

Thanks

I know I have to endure

2 more yrs

and I outta here

gone

move away frm all these

I know my worth

And I don need to die just to show all of u that

Today I wrote down the reasons

Why I'm gonna endure and live my life

There's so many places I wanna see

So many countries I've nvr been to

So many things I wanna do

So many feelings I haven felt

Too early to end it all

Mei

U want my place

Take it

I love u too much to fight with u

Go ahead

Win the best daughter award I don give a shit

I don know my the ppl I love the most in my life have to hurt me this way

Sometimes I feel like running away

Now I tell myself

2 more yrs

2 more yrs

and I'm gone

outta here

I'm gonna start a new life

I'm not gonna let u hurt me

live like u were dyin'

love this song
loveitloveitloveit

He said I was in my early 40's,
With a lot of life before me,
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.
How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,

[Chorus]

I went sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I've been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.

He said I was finally the husband,
That most the time I wasn't.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin' fishing,
Wasn't such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I'd do
If I could do it all again.
And then.

[Chorus]

Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity
To think about what you do with it,
What could you do with it, what can
I do with with it, what would I do with it.

[Chorus]
Sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.

To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin