i believe in keeping the status quo
BUT
something happen
and now is ruined
someone ruined it for herself
we used to be able to pretend nothing happen
now it will be hard
like i said
is important to maintain the status quo
u started it
too bad
u just opened pendora's box
is deadly and cant be close

a song for u
oldies by bee gees
i started a joke

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,
but I didn't see that the joke was on me,
oh no.

I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,

oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.
I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.

'Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,oh,
if I'd only seen that the joke was one me.

is 2 am
and i cant sleep
this is wat happen when u drink 2 cups of tek terik at 9 pm
i cant sleep even if i want too
alot happen lately
was shocked at 1st
but i'm getting used to it
don surprise me now
I just wanna live
Don really care about the things that they say
Don really care about what happens to me
Just wanna live

a song that express how i feel now

"The Chronicles Of Life And Death"

You come in cold,
You're covered in blood.
They're all so happy you've arrived.
The doctor cuts your cord.
He hands you to your mom.
She sets you free into this life
.And where do you go with no destination, no maps to guide you.
Wouldn't you know that it doesn't matter, we all end up the same.

These are the chronicles of life and death and everything between.
These are the stories of our lives,
as fictional as they may seem.
You come in this world,
and you go out just the same.
Today could be the best day of your life.

And money talks in this world,
Thats what idiots will say
But you'll find out that this world,
Is just an idiots parade
Before you go,
you've got some questions.
And you want answers
But now you're old, cold, covered in blood, right back to where you started from

These are the chronicles of life and death and everything between.
These are the stories of our lives,
as fictional as they may seem.
You come in this world,
and you go out just the same.
Today could be the worst day of your life.

But these are the chronicles of life and death and everything between.
These are the stories of our lives,
as fictional as they may seem.You come in this world, a
nd you go out just the same.Today could be the best day of,
Today could be the worst day of,
Today could be the last day of your life.
It's your life, your life.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
to u know who u r
i know what u do behind my back
BUT
u know wat
i don care
u might be better than me
u might have the upper hand
but we all go out the same
we live
we die
the end
i wanna live my life
i accept ppl like u as part of this place call earth
but
don expect me to like u
2 can play the game
i'll just put on my mask
and play dumb
but i know
i know what you've done
but i'll nvr show
learnt it from u
nvr show how u truly feel

i can go bangkok already
is surprising how fast my parents can change their minds
work sucks
so i rather not talk abt it
watch the sponge bob movie
funny
in a SUPER lame way
spend the dya at liv's place
mua hahahaha
watching spongebob
eating dark choc and jelly
hahahahahaha
man...
i'm getting fat again
haha

sch starts
bea's back
learned some stuff
interesting
is true
i have interesting friends who enlighten me everytime
i learn new stuff
and i'm sure i'll grow stronger with each of this little things that happens to me
am kindna tired of all this
but thats life
kindna upset with someone
really nice to me online and all
on msn
but when we meet face to face
this person acts like i don exist
like - don know me
kindna sad
makes me go back to the shallow hal thing again

any way
I'M GOING BANGKOK
sch trip
so cool!!!!
:)
kindna make me think abt her
we wanted to go 2gether
then she got pissed with me for getting a job
and causing her to lose hers
but she nvr knew i got a job
so i can have the cash to go with her
to do wat we dreamed
well that will nvr happen
is ok
i've moved on
but wheeeeeeeeee
am exicited abt the trip
:)

i'm baaaaaaaack
am much more relax now
woke up early in the morning
took a bus to KL
beautiful day
the differance between spore and malaysia can be seen
just by looking at the sky
spend most of my journey looking at the clouds
realise
clouds
unlike what we see in spore
are not that high up
they look really low
like they just next to u
but u cant touch it
kindna make me realise how small we r
nice clouds
there was one funny one that looks like superman with a chicken face
hehehehehehhehehehehhe
then we went china town
petaling street
OMG
lets just say it looks like a scene out of gangs of new york
GANGS OF MALAYSIA
cause is second day of CNY and all
the streets r DIRTY
sooooooooooo
dirty
and workers all around
like little indian on a saturday

petaling street was great
lots of things to buy
lots of stall selling fake stuff
MUA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
got me a fake tiffany bracelet
hehehehehhehe
and a fake LV umbrella
hahahahahahhaha
at nite we went for dindin near our hotel
love our hotel cause is near china town
and near the shopping places
hahahahaha
there was this 3 storey high quicksliver and roxy shop
soooo coool
bought another bracelet
then we went Mid valley shopping the next day
waaaaaoooohhhh
is HUUUUGE
got some tee shirts
then went back to china town again
at nite
got more bracelets
hahahahahahaha
my sis got a LV wallet
same as zann's
same price as zann's
but in RM
=
S$23
shop shop shop
till i drop
trust me
the anger i had the past weeks
all shopped out
our last day
we went to times square
really near our hotel
BUT so cool
why?
the place have a amusment park INDOORS
together with a roller coaster
THE WORKS
but don look very fun
it was too slow
took the LRT to KLCC
visit the twin towers
had lunch at CPK
had a BBQ Chicken pizza
my mouth is watering rite now
miss the taste
soooo good
haha
then went to china town again!!!
hahahahaha
buy more stuff
mua hahahahaha
but
all good things cometo an end
(i wanted to go home too)
we had to go
on me way back
look at the sky again
AND I SEE STARS
something u can hardly see here
the whole sky
stars filled
beautiful

am more calm now
than before
sorry to all
if i was being a total bitch
the past weeks

me feeling better now
just really need this break
get away from here
thanks all
for ur concerns
- luke
for calling me
knowing that i'm down and all
phone bill will be a killer
hehehe
thanks luv
-livie
i'm fine
like i said i need a break
i'll call u when i need to talk
hahahahaha
u can count on it
- bea
when r u coming back
u enjoying
i'm here
bored to tears
sick of waking up on the same bed in the same room
waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- moomoo
hahaha
thanks
don have to pick me up frm classes
acc ur gf k
haha

felt so invisible today
had no one to talk to
left out by everyone
when i do say something it get side tracked and nvr got back again
disappointing
then i started pigging out
1st the hotdog during break then the ramee burger after cls
then pasta in orchard!!!
felt so freaking guilty
plus was already feeling felt out
all this kindna made it worse
so when i got home started drinking lots of water and made myself throw up
which i did
feeling really uncomfortable rite now
i'm suspicious of everyone around me now
trying to figure out wat they really think abt me
or are they there talking to me because they had no other choice
ppl at work are extra nice to me
weiling talk to me
NICELY
like how she talk to her FRIENDS
then ppl in sch
they're just cold
i'm always tagging behind them or in front of them ALONE
is not really a great feeling
it gets to u after a while
it just got me thinking
i see them as a friend
but do they
or am i just someone that they had to talk to
or entertain for a while
maybe thay're bored had no one to talk to and i was the next best thing
it is pretty sad
thinking abt the times i was left out of the thing they do or say
i always know things the last and by the time i know
the event was over anyway
and they are talking abt how it went
i always give my 120% as a friend
and it saddens me to know that i don always get it back
the countless sorries they've said
now makes me wonder whether they mean it
are they truly sorry
or are they just trying to entertain me
or themselves
i don know
just know that wat i felt today
is not going to be the last...