i can hardly wait

was in the train today
sitting opp 2 really skinny gal
they were talking abt sizes
and in a way i can feel they r making fun of me
and my size

sure i must admit i'm alittle overweight and all
but to under go this treatment frm them
is not easy
to be me

yes i've seen ppl who r waaayyyy fatter than me
i know i'm really not that fat
but how can i escape the looks of sporeans
who believe that thin is everything
even my mom believes that

one of my friend recently told me
that this place kills her self esteem
she like me
has alot of confidence

but the looks of this place kills it
everytime i get this little bit of self esteem
someone has to come and KILL it

they have to put me down
give me looks like i have another head
i grew up being different

i was different frm my pri cls mates
i was loud and different
sec sch
i was different too

now
ppl don look at me the same way cause i'm fat

same thing happened to me again and again
i cant go out with any of my bfs without ppl saying
how did fat gal get a bf

i had some guy screaming
hey fat gal
once at me

i pick myself up again and again and again
the minute i get my self esteem back
someone have to push me down

ppl i don know
my mom
family members
friends

u're fat
u need to lose weight
u have to exercise
u can use this use that

i lost count of how many ppl
made fun of my weight

lost count of how many guy rejected me
because of my weight

i was called cute
= ugly but still ok

wat guys want
is a gal
with a totally hot body
stuff for wet dreams

well i'm not
i might nvr be
but can this place accept me the way i am

i don think so
i remember when i was young
when i wanted to get the hell of here
my sis asked me
why do u wanna leave spore

y???

because this place will nvr accept me the way i am
big bone
unable to lose weight me
everyguy is looking for a thin gal

no gals will accept me into their perfect thin world
i accept the way this society is
i wouldnt change it
i'll run away frm it

even my mom ask me to lose weight
my family don even accept me
all of them like the other normal sporeans are thin

i stood out like a sore thumb
like i always do
i don want to

i want to leave
leave this superficia place
asap

i cant wait to grow older
work
hopefully in a MNC
which can transfer me to other countries
i'm sick of this place

i can hardly wait