~waiting for HIM~

I have too much time
I went on search for this guy on friendster
maybe is because of
breakfast at tiffany's
watch the movie last night
I want to be holly
I want to be in love
yet totally clueless at the same time
I agree with her
there are times when we feel afraid
but we don know what we're afraid of
I cant find him

I regret to say
the last time I have that great love feeling was a long time ago
primary school
HIM
marco
looks like darker bigger eyes vanness
broad shoulders
the really gentleman feeling
the feeling I have when I see him
NOW THAT'S CALL LOVE

unfortunately I never felt that feeling ever again
the mind- blowing- heart -stopping -tightness- at- the- chest feeling
the wonderful feeling of GREAT LOVE
yes I felt love
but never again great love
not even the longest relationship I had was able to give me that great love feeling
not even for a minute
a second
great love was gone

or so I thought
then I saw him again
this year
Chinese new year
when I was coming back from Langkawi
he was standing in front of me in the Malaysia checkpoint
CJC uniform
I know is him from the back
how?
I don know
but I knew it was him
the feeling of GREAT LOVE
is back
I saw the student pass thingy on his hands
tried my best to look at his name
I did
MARCO S SU....
the rest covered by his fingers
is him
I know is him
gosh I was so happy
that whole thing lasted for 3 minutes
then I lost him again
the feeling lingered for a while
then it turn to disappointment
I lost him again
I didn't treasure my chance
talk to him or something
stupid me

is like god drop a million dollars in front of a poor blind beggar
he couldn't see it
he can't
I could
but I didn't take the chance

every guy I've been with was never able to let me feel this great love
but every guy I think is cute seem to look alike
tall
dark
broad shoulders
looks a little like vanness
or rather marco
whether is nose lips or face shape
vanness looks like marco
A LOT like marco
with bigger eyes
the type
when he looks into your eyes
you feel that he's looking into your soul

my whole obsession with vanness
tall guys
people with broad shoulders
non-Chinese / Singaporean
(he's Indonesian)
the name marco
guys with HOT body
yet have the good boy boy feel

all of them sums up to one person
HIM
MARCO
the real McCoy

and it also sums up one more thing

I'm NUTS
NUTS ABOUT HIM

( if anyone know him pls tell me)