~as this year ends~

1 hr before the end of 2004
the beginning of 2005

as i look back this year
i must really say
i lost alot
i gain alot
and i
really grown up the past year

i lost

him
due to my own self really
i was the one who wanted to break up
then breaking my own rule number 1
NEVER BE FRIENDS WITH YOUR EX
i let my emotions get the better of me
i wanted us to be together again
not really possible
i know
yes we made it clear
between us
not to contact each other any more
but there are days where i really miss him
and cant help but remembering the times we had together

i know the saying that
time will pass us by
and sadness will be forgotten
but there will be times when memories will hit you in the face
and they might not alwasy be the past ones

i also lost friendships
i know i'm not prefect
and might not be the best person to hang out with
my heart have been broken tons of times
by friends mostly
i was back stab so many times i lost count
but i'll remember
and will forgive
hatred is not a good thing to carry along with you at all times

i've gain back some of these freindship
but to truely trust them again
might not be possible
i know they will be angry reading this and all
but do understand

u fool me once, your bad
fool me twice, my bad

i just cant fully trust you ppl anymore k

i also lost friendship
this due to me myself and i
i made mistakes
my hard to control emotions
saying things i don mind
i'm truely sorry
but theres nothing i can do
i've tried
and i've done my best

i gain

new friends
wheeeeeeeeeee
livie, zann, cowell, shah,b, mel,ja
and tons more

i wanna thank all of u for helping me
and being with me this past mths
it's been hard
for me at time
like mel said i'm a emotional kaleidoscope
thank u thank u thank u
for keeping up with my ever changing emotions
hehehehe

gain new found looks
hahahahaha
i look different
no longer nerdy- hair- tied- up-nun
hehehehehehe

2004 for me is also a pretty sad year
the world is changing
if 2003 is the year of human made wars
then 2004 is the year of nature's protest

it just makes me sad
to know that what is happening to the world is actually done by us
humans

"Hell is empty, all the Devils are here." (William Shakespeare)

sad but true

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

not to make my last entry of the year that sad
some happy news

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

vanness's album hehehehe
will be out next year
haha
me going back to the tv to watch more vanness
hehe
bye-o
see u next year
:P

~the summary for the update below~

i tell myself this and i want u to know this

It really doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven.

Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself.

You have better things to do and you can move on.

The hatred you're carrying is a live coal in your heart - far more damaging to yourself than to them.

There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.

~the stall~

5 years ago me and a friend have a dream
we want to go to paris
we want to own our own stall
we want to be at each other's wedding

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

4 years later
countless of fights
disagreements
bitching
and all

we set up a stall
not me
actually
her and another friend
i helped

not alot
i'm guilty of that
i didnt do alot
cause i thot for the beginning
is was too early
we don have the money
we don have anything
we're just blind in a sense
rushing in head on without thinking
with NOTHING

i supported her
i kept quiet abt things
let her be happy
with the stall

but she know and i know
is not working out
we're just covering some losses

then i found a job
i wanted out
she got mad
things got ugly
both of us
or i for that matter
said things
i didnt mean
and shouldnt have

the stall closed
i didnt get my money back
they went on yahoo to sell the rest
left ones
or so i thot
until i found out today
that they r operating on yahoo

really
new goods and all
kind of made me pretty sad
doing this behind me and all
is like u're kept in the dark

well i've made my stand

so to her

i don care abt the money anymore

i don care abt the stall

all this never happened

so lets all forget abt all this

the promises

everything

i know you're angry with me
but do urself a flavor
forgive AND forget
forget not just the mistake i've made
BUT forget me completely

is painful for u
and hate is not good for ur health

u don wanna die so early
lots more things to live for

donno if u'll read this
and don wanna know
keep it to urself
and i'll keep my very personal thots abt us to me

love
min

Beautiful Days

had a GREAT DAY yest at work

reasons

1. MY "BEST FRIEND" didnt come
2. understand these ppl more
3. just happy i guess

baked cheese cookies as xmas gifts for them
but misspelt rayner's name
spelt RAINER
now everyone calls him my xiao yu dain
my little rain drop
hahahahahahhahahaha

NOOOOOO
there's NOTHING between us
and i don go for younger guys
GOSH

met eliza
marco new gf
she's sweet
a really nice gal
LUCKY U!!!!!!

use really bored today
maybe watching a movie
yes
BY MYSELF

haven done that in a long time
hehehe
watching The Phantom Of The Opera with francis
will be watching meet the fockers with olivia
seed of chucky with the yaty yati sue and cookie (if she can get in since she's under 18)
maybe i'll watch Alexander...
HOT
or maybe watch oceans 12 AGAIN
brad pitt = HOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOTHOT

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

single again...

me and my part time bf broke up
yapie
it was part of the deal
if one of us found THE ONE
the other will let go
no complains
no fuss
quick
and hopefully
PAINLESS
..........
to me is pretty painless
just wish he would do it after xmas
she sound nice
now both of us are just gonna return to what we use to be
siblings-liked-friends
a little more than friends
a little less than siblings
maybe all this is better
.........
in some way i'm upset
but then i'm happy for him
he found his
mixed confused feelings
haizzzz
maybe i'm upset cause i'm single again
yeah
love and addicted to the feeling of being in love
still looking for GREAT love
but love is good too
for the time being
..........
i'll just live with what i have now
cause i know
and believe
one day
i'll find great love again
..........
i will
...........

me new birdie

wheeeeeeeeeeee
i got a new birdie
it flew into my house and refuse to leave
for real!!!
my mom let it out th e1st time it flew in
it came flying back 2 hours later
coolz rite
so now we're keeping her
wheeeeee
her pics down below
so cuteeeee
have to work tml
hahaha no weiling
don have to see her
happy
but i'll miss julian's wedding
too bad
booooooos
but is ok
still glad
for all the things happening to me these few days
went to sentosa this morning
tanning
no sun at all
haizzzzz
but is ok still had a pretty good time
me and olivia
hehehehehehehehehe
our private beach
we reached at 830
hahahahaha
no one in sight
hehehehehe
then we went to that Aiwo place for lunch okok lah
still not really for me taste
sat opp a lady who eats with her mouth open
don feel like eating anymore
but i wonder
when u chew with ur mouth open
do ur food drop out of ur mouth
???????
can any one answer me
????????
then when to get olivia's xmas gifts
hope u like it gal
and i got mine
I LOVE IT
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Me and bea 

b4 she sleeps she'll blow up like a puffer fish then hide her head under her wing cross her legs and sleep 

tweets me new birdie 

~My Week~

had a pretty great week

on sat at work
i found out that a lot of ppl like me hates weiling
haha
we call her our "BEST FRIEND"
hehehehehe
had at fun day at work
mainly cause weiling was working morning shift
so i don have to have dinner and breaks with her
and see her face
totally cool
had lots of fun working with yaty cookie and francis
our "cheeky" club
hehehehehehe
led by master of all cheekies
FRANCIS
haha
also the "love of his life"
YATY
hehehehehehehe

on sun i took the day off
went to me cousin's wedding
it was in the afternoon
at 1st i thot it will suck
but it turn out to be quite good
it was at the hiltons
a buffet lunch
which is soooo totally great
*droolz*
hehehehehehehe
me fave
the mini fruit tarts
oh my gawd
little cookie tarts fill with custard topped with diff fruits
hahaha
hehehe
so nice
and the rasberry cookie
haha

today
went to watch ocean's 12 with bea
great movie
mainly because brad pitt is
SOOOOOO H O T
hahahahaha
but still feel that ocean's 11 is better
went on a earrings buying frenzy
haha
got 3 earrings in less than 10 minutes
at diff shops
tsktsktsk
thankz bea for listening to be talk crap and act silly all day
and also for the shopping frenzy
hahaha
also at the sushi place
my jaws theme song
everytime i bite into a sushi
hehehehehe
dandan-dandan-dandan-dandan-dandan-DANDAN-DANNNNNN
poking into my sushi to make sure is REALLY dead
hehehehehehehe
and looking for my bimbo-legally blond-feather-pink pen
hahahahaha
and not understanding what the neo print machine is talking about
hehehehehheehehhehe

my job?!?!?!?!

love the job at kino
will love it more if


i don work in the kids dept

i work in fiction ADULTS english book dept

there's no stupid parents who don know hoe to teach their kid to behave

no kids to mess to books

no ugly singaporeans with their SUPER spoilt ugly kids

no "don buy here very expensive we go popular"

i change my mind MORE of that pls go popular DON COME BACK

no snobbish ang mohs

snobbish ang mohs with their equally snobbish kids

there's no weiling and her freaking face

there's no weiling and her temper

there's no weiling and her biased behaviour TOWARDS ME

there's no weiling PERIOD!!!!!!!

NO WEILING

NO WEILING

NO WEILING

NO WEILING

*******************

she happens to be the one that TOTALLY spoilts my time at kino
i think it'll be wonderful without her
at 1st when i thot if i change to weekend i might on see her
maybe i'll see her for like 1 day
BUT
like the devil
she is addicted to torturing me
SHE CHANGED TO WEEKENDS TOO
!!!!!!
see !!!!!
is she out to get me or what

she's pretty much nice to everyone BUT me
she talks nicely to them
BUT
she hardly speaks to me
unless is to scold me
or blame me for something
BLAH

i LOATHE her
unlike others
i cant pretend she don exist
i treasure my job too much for that

and i only treasure it because
IT PAYS $6 PER HOUR

cant think of ANY thing else
other than some cute guys
WHICH I HARDLY SEE
SINCE I'M WORKING IN THE KIDS DEPT
AND MOST GUYS I CAN LOOK AT ARE
MARRIED
WITH KIDS
THINNING HAIR
POT BELLIES

need i say more

i need a new job that pay more than this
OR
i need to depts

haizzzz

all by myself

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone

Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

When I was young
I never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
All by myself
Don't wanna be
All by myself
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live
Oh
Don't wanna live
By myself, by myself
Anymore

By myself
Anymore
Oh
All by myself
Don't wanna liveI never, never, never
Needed anyone

ASSHOLES!!!!

was feeling so screwed
work suck
ugly Singaporeans
I finish tidying up one place
in less than 5 minutes it will become a royal mess again
fawk!
plus not very myself today
do things that I don do
make mistakes I don make
arrrgggghhhh
then got scolded by this gal at work AGAIN
she’s always extra mean to me
so I kindna got use to it
but don know why today
I cant take it
during dinner break I just felt like crying
like all the stress frustrations and angry forcing their way out my eyes
the past 2 mths is a total pain
at 1st I thot maybe it will be better if I talk to someone
sms a friend
turns out
my life is pathetic!!!
none of my smses were replied
NONE
I don know why but this made me feel even worse
is not like I nvr listen to these ppl
and nvr lend a listening ear to them in their times of need
I did
and lost count of the times
BUT WHAT DO I GET WHEN I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE
all of them disappear from earth
and I seem to be the only one
I can only fawking cry and vend my frustrations
CAN I TALK TO ANYONE!!!!!!
NO!!!!!!
THEY ARE NOT THERE
hypocrites that act as if they care sooooo fawking much abt me
but do they really give a fawking darn
I’m just someone they used
I was so stupid and available for them to pour their emotion to
but when I need them
THEY NOT EVEN FAWKING THERE
just so freaking pissed right now
I listen to these ppl day in day out
and what do I get
do they really care abt me
no one cared when I had to go SGH
no one care when the devils of my past comes back
no one fawking cares how I really feel
all they want is a answer that make them less guilty of not being the GOOD FRIEND
well guess what!!!!!
TAKE THAT FAWKING FAKE GUILT AND FLY A KITE
I don need you
ALL OF YOU

Waiting for you by Anson Hu 胡彥斌

金色的舞鞋 伴著音樂
baby你的眼睛是一彎深邃的湖水
而忽明忽滅
掩藏不可思議的美
讓我暈眩
在懸崖邊
誰知一睜眼就不見

waiting for you
I'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
為何你Cinderella留給我一望無際的思念

waiting for you
I'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牽著你不斷旋轉 一直到黑髮變成了銀線
waiting for you waiting for you 只到永遠

~waiting for HIM~

I have too much time
I went on search for this guy on friendster
maybe is because of
breakfast at tiffany's
watch the movie last night
I want to be holly
I want to be in love
yet totally clueless at the same time
I agree with her
there are times when we feel afraid
but we don know what we're afraid of
I cant find him

I regret to say
the last time I have that great love feeling was a long time ago
primary school
HIM
marco
looks like darker bigger eyes vanness
broad shoulders
the really gentleman feeling
the feeling I have when I see him
NOW THAT'S CALL LOVE

unfortunately I never felt that feeling ever again
the mind- blowing- heart -stopping -tightness- at- the- chest feeling
the wonderful feeling of GREAT LOVE
yes I felt love
but never again great love
not even the longest relationship I had was able to give me that great love feeling
not even for a minute
a second
great love was gone

or so I thought
then I saw him again
this year
Chinese new year
when I was coming back from Langkawi
he was standing in front of me in the Malaysia checkpoint
CJC uniform
I know is him from the back
how?
I don know
but I knew it was him
the feeling of GREAT LOVE
is back
I saw the student pass thingy on his hands
tried my best to look at his name
I did
MARCO S SU....
the rest covered by his fingers
is him
I know is him
gosh I was so happy
that whole thing lasted for 3 minutes
then I lost him again
the feeling lingered for a while
then it turn to disappointment
I lost him again
I didn't treasure my chance
talk to him or something
stupid me

is like god drop a million dollars in front of a poor blind beggar
he couldn't see it
he can't
I could
but I didn't take the chance

every guy I've been with was never able to let me feel this great love
but every guy I think is cute seem to look alike
tall
dark
broad shoulders
looks a little like vanness
or rather marco
whether is nose lips or face shape
vanness looks like marco
A LOT like marco
with bigger eyes
the type
when he looks into your eyes
you feel that he's looking into your soul

my whole obsession with vanness
tall guys
people with broad shoulders
non-Chinese / Singaporean
(he's Indonesian)
the name marco
guys with HOT body
yet have the good boy boy feel

all of them sums up to one person
HIM
MARCO
the real McCoy

and it also sums up one more thing

I'm NUTS
NUTS ABOUT HIM

( if anyone know him pls tell me)

wheeeeee

just finish my exams
and all
so happi
hehehehehehehehe
yapz
i think i lost my way the other day
which is y i'm confused
y didnt i choose pre u
cause i love mass comm
i want to be a producer
i want to write stories
screenplays
i think i forgot that the other day
what i wanted
what i dream for
is slowly coming back to me now
maybe is because of this year
so many things happen
friendship lost and gained
love life went totally wrong some how
maybe thats y
maybe
i donno
just hope it could be better next year
truly learnt alot this year
trying to find my way back again
hope i can find it
hoping
:Pcathy

"HELL IS EMPTY, ALL THE DEVILS ARE HERE"---William Shakespeare

We buy more
But enjoy less
We talk too much
Love too seldom
And hate too often
We've learnt to make a living
But not a life
We have taller buildings
But shoter tempers
Wider free ways
But narrower view points
Bigger houses
But smaller families
More conveniences
But less time
We have more degrees
But less senses
More knowledge
But less judgement
We plan more
But accomplise less
We work hard
But play harder
We've learnt to rush
But not to wait
We drink too much
Smoke too much
Spend too recklessly
But laugh too little
We stay up too late
And get up too tired
We read not enough
Watch TV too much
We pray too seldom
We've cleaned up the air
But polluted our souls
Refuse to pay for expensive food
But spends too much on getting rid of the weight
Having sex with different mates
But cant find a life partner

WE ARE THE MONSTERS OF THIS MODERN WORLD

HELL IS EMPTY ALL THE DEVILS ARE HERE

if i went to Millennia Institute

was studying this few days
and i realise
WHAT HAVE I LEARN THE PAST FEW MTHS
how about
ALMOST NOTHING
our exams questions r given to us b4 hand
our text books looks like notes
nothing in depth
our lecturer
they might have work experiences
But are they really good enough to teach???
this is my future
what i'm suppose to be for the rest of my life
but i cant help but worry
for my future
did i make a mistake choosing TBS
what will i be like now
if i was in MI the very 1st place
one thing thats for sure
i will NOT be writing this
the uncertain confused tone
i'll be studying for my A levels
after that i'll go uni
then work
boring
but stable
stressful
but worth it
after advance dip
i can find a job if i cant get into a spore uni
but am i fully qualified for it?
the subjects i've learnt the past few mths
is that all?
that short that little
i'm sure there is more to be taught
but why didnt i learn that?
dunno and i'm not sure rite now
the exam i don even feel like studying now
i don see the point of them giving us the questions
us passing
them giving us the dip
we leaving this sch with nothing learnt
the only thing i can do now is to study learn as much as i can
and hope that the real world will accept a dip mass comm grad
with a little knowledge about the job
just a basic knowledge the very basic
can't do anything other than this right now
i chose this route
i finish walking
yes i admit
i blame myself
for not taking the safe route
for jumping into a pit
without knowing what is inside
at least i have a A levels cert
not a dip i don even think i deserve
but
what can i do now
just cont walking i guess
i chose the road
i have to finish the walk

The case of the missing SATC last 8 episodes

how things change over a few days
i was so happy that i got my sex and the city dvds
then when i watch the last one i realise
IS NOT COMPLETE
the last 8 were missing
is ok since i watch some on HBO
but due to my work b4 i have the break and all
i missed them
so wat i missed will forever be missing
stupid uncle again
i'm never going back to that shop
EVER
he told me that this was the complete season
if you call missing 8 episodes complete
duh...
gosh
thank god for online downloads
i just watch the last 2 episodes
wheeeeeeeeeeee
carrie choose Big
and his real name is
*drum rolls*
John????!!!!!???!!!!
yeah
john....
hehehehehe
that is the name they've been hiding for the past 6 seasons
mr big's real name is john
who would have thot
haha
well is a good ending
carrie and john
wooooo
carrie and big
yeah
that sounds better
haha
anyway i was watching the part when carrie were meeting the girl for their last dinner before leaving for paris and she say
"I can't be drunk on the plane. I want to arrive stunning and impossibly fresh looking."
is the same line from Trading up
a book by Candace Bushnell
who is also the original writer of Sex and the city
man i think i'm crazy
haha
:P

Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall downI
just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]

I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
(I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakawayI'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

new age cinderella without the happy ending???

been doing soooo much house work these 2 days
due to all the changes to my house and all
my sisters were NOT at home so i'm the one helping EVERYTHING
cleaning and slaving away
mom's naggings
NO ONE REALISE
THAT MY EXAMS ARE THIS SAT
AND I NEED TO STUDY
yap NO ONE knew
my mind with my books
me slaving away
packing away my sis's stuff
there should be a law that ban this cinderella thingy.
me gonna add another song to me blog
all these songs i add really shows my feelings...
sad but true...
me will end this with 1 min of silence for me cousin's dog who was put to sleep after suffering from liver failure...
i know i hate your family and all but i love ringo
he's the only thing in your house i can stand
.....

my ears my head my legs

we changed the flooring for our rooms today
3 rooms
have to move everything out
our bed tables blah
made a total mess
all our things are just
EVERYWHERE
plus my sisters are NOT at home
so i have to pack
the whole house was
dirty noisy dusty
I HATE DIRT
DUST MAKES ME SNEEZE
AND LOUD NOISES GIVES ME HEADACHE
AND EARACHE
my sister were not there to witness all these
began complaining once they reach home
FAWK IT
the floor was soooooo dirty
they were cutting/sawing the wood flooring in the house
the saw dust is ALL over the place
have to clean like heck after they left
yet my sister COMPLAIN
she didnt have to do ANYTHING
arrrgggghhhhh
so tired rite now
gonna watch sex and the city
then sleep
wait till midnite wish zann HAPPY BIRTHDAY
wheeeeeeee

my jb trip~~~

went to jb for 2 days
fun
truly shows
HOW MUCH I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM HERE
anyway
i got VCDS / DVDS
wheeeee
finally own sex and the city season 6
YES!!!!
love it!!!
watch shutter
not bad
not that scary
5/10
bride and prejudice
very funny
7/10
abnormal beauty
SUCK!!!
-10000000/10
this story line is OK
but the way it was film TOTALLY SUCK
wat is wrong with the pang brothers
they were GREAT
filmimg the eye and all
but this really x 10000000000
SUCK
the movie was draggy
very slow
and the whole filming was a MESS
some scenes just leave you thinking
WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT ABOUT
the ending was like huh???
overall a TOTAL disappointment
i SHOULD have gotten three instead
at least i know is scary
stupid uncle at the vcd shop told me he nearly peel on his pants when he watch it
like DUH
goshers
i still have afew movies not watch will be watching them soon after i study of course
exams in a week
waoh
time passes fast
dhars is in nz now
haha
yap
back to my trip we had a party on sat nite
my cousin's birthday
haha
saw this really cute guy
BUT
total BAD dress sense
so bad
bai ling (that chinese gal in hollywood with really bad dress sense) looks like a TOTAL diva standing nice to him
really
told me cous abt it
she thinks his friend is cuter
they're about the same
but the friend has better dress sense
hahaha
eeeewwwww
i killed a bug
with my hands
eeeewwwwww
wat was i thinking have to wash my hand over and over and over now
aarrggghhhh

RuMoRs

Saturday steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound
But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floo
rAnd throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)
I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me'
Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[BRIDGE:]

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is
I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)
I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)
What they (follow) me
Why can't they (they they they-they-they) let me live
Take this for just what it is

[CHORUS:]

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me liveI
'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is
I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

my 1 mth holi

woo hoooo the 1 mth deferment thing is great!!!
haha
gave my self more time to study
didnt really put my heart and soul into my studies this sem
which is really bad
i don wanna retake again
my job at kino is going well
getting the hang of everything
haha
changing to weekend next mth
cant wait...
went out for dinner on wed with my cousin i haven seen for two years
total word count:2
bye bye
total weird uncomfy look between us: i lost count after 12
all i can said is theres no hope
we nvr seem to see eye to eye
y bother pretending we're one big happy family
when we're not
more like one BIG disfuntional family...
anyway don think will meet them again anytime soon
which is a good thing
cant stand cold
haha
"'-_-

the voice within

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fal
lYoung girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall